Today marks a significant milestone in my journey of mothering. Today I wean my last baby from nursing.
Since October 2012, I’ve been either pregnant or nursing without a gap. Between my 3 little crazies, it adds up to 45 months of nursing. The past few years my life has been centered in a constantly physically sacrificial mode as we’ve been growing our family. The privilege of mothering, the gift of healthy children, the full arms, and even fuller heart...it’s been the most beautiful aspects of my life.
And today I leave a little bit of it behind. Today I watch my sweet Susan transform from snugly baby to independent big girl. The truth is she’s already there. But my mama heart sees different. Today I say goodbye to that last little link to a world filled with just her and I. Her moments of nursing, though frequent and demanding at times, were moments where only I was needed. My snugly squishy mama’s girl.
Today I’ll hold my last baby just a little tighter. I’ll whisper “I love you’s,” and breathe deep that last bit of baby smell. Today I move forward and step into the “big kid only” phase while this wonderfully loud, incredibly stretching, beautifully fulfilling, adventure continues.
“Children are a gift from the Lord;they are a reward from him. ” Psalm 127:3
